Friday, November 03, 2006

Moral Disorder by Margaret Atwood


1) In 2006, the prolific Margaret Atwood has released three books: The Penelopiad which reworks the Ulysses myth from Penelope's point of view; The Tent, a collection of fable-like stories and poems; and Moral Disorder, a collection of connected short stories. I've read them all. They were all excellent. Most people are lucky to publish three good books in a lifetime.

2) Last night, as we were lying in bed, I read my husband the story "Moral Disorder" from the book of the same name. My husband and I don't usually read to one another; we're just not that way inclined. Originally, I just wanted to read him a passage from the story but I couldn't stop and he didn't want me to, and by the end of the story we were laughing so hard, we were crying. The best bit was the haunted peacock. This is Margaret Atwood. Remember Margaret Atwood- the dark, bleak, feminist man-hater (as you no doubt learned when you read Handmaid's Tale at school?) Margaret Atwood is a first class comedian.

3) At the end of her story "The Entities", Margaret Atwood writes, "But what else could I do with all that? thinks Nell, wending her way back to her own house. All that anxiety and anger, those dubious good intentions, those tangled lives, that blood. I can tell about it or I can bury it. In the end, we'll all become stories. Or else we'll become entities. Maybe it's the same." I cite this passage, as Moral Disorder has been remarked on profusely for being quite autobiographical in its content, and herein lies the clue. I don't see this book as autobiographical, but it is clear thoughout Atwood's oeuvre that she mines her own life for stuff. Not her own experiences particularly, although they do appear, but more objects and settings. Having just read Cat's Eye, Moral Disorder, and now rereading Lady Oracle, this is quite apparent. And I think it's really fascinating to understand the different ways authors use their own lives in their work, and rather than supplying us with the story of Atwood, Moral Disorder provides insight into this process.

4) In addition, I don't think a story such as "Moral Disorder" could have been written unless it came from some experience, or combination of experience. That sort of story is too absurd to be imagined, and could only be captured by someone who has lived through it. I'm just guessing.

5) I think Moral Disorder is essentially a novel. The stories all could stand alone (and they do-- I'd read two in previous Toronto Life Fiction Issues) but the links are essential, a chronology is present. This book is a novel in the way that Lives of Girls and Women is a novel, though I think as a novel Atwood's book actually works better.

6) I have written this entry as a list, to reflect my confusion about short story collections and how they should be reviewed. I could treat this book like the novel I believe it is, and sum up the narrative trajectory, but somehow that feels cheap. And my automatic response to this work was indeed rent and chaptered, as you can see. So it's not completely a novel, but I stress its novel-like tendencies so those of you who dislike short story collections will not be put off this most excellent reading experience.

7) I could say this. Some short stories are not meant for collection, and might be happier wandering free. The stories in Moral Disorder, on the other hand, belong together. They centre around a character called Nell, and begin with the story "Bad News" in a present day, which takes a page from The Tent in form and content, I thought. From the second story, we return to Nell's childhood and the stories continue in first-person until about half-way through when I becomes Nell (and her house is possessed by a lovesick peacock). She grows up, falls in love, struggles with the realities of modern love ala David Bowie (well, no David Bowie but you know, it's the seventies). The last two stories of the collection beautifully deal with the decline of Nell's parents and her relationships with them, and contribute to the circular structure of this collection. A fascinating dynamic is apparent, as Nell is caring for the ailing parents and their roles are reversed, and yet she is more a child than she ever was, because this is how they know and remember her.

8) This was a deeply satisfying book.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Today

When a shite piece of prose grows legs, and Stuart's eggs show signs of imminent chickenhood. And there's Japanese curry for dinner. Cheers all around then.

Joe saw me first

Joe saw me first, which wasn't technically true because I'd seen him plenty before that. I knew him, but so did everyone, in that way a whole crowd knows a singer on the stage but no one expects him to know them back. Joe Brighton had been President of the Student Council the year before, when a radical group organized a sit-in at the Chancellor's Office in protest of the Vietnam War and the university administration's draconian authoritarianism. Rather unfashionably, Joe had condemned the students' actions as irresponsible and ill-conceived, and he lent his support to a police raid that saw the protesters jailed. He'd stood up on behalf of mild-mannered, clean-cut boys everywhere, and even when the school paper pasted a headline over his face proclaiming him a fascist, you still had to admire his gumption. Joe's council impeached him before his term was up, which only heightened his fame really. Felled politician though he was, Joe Brighton was six foot five and gorgeous, star forward of the Varsity Hockey Team, and when I used to take his order at the restaurant where I worked, I could hardly speak without a stammer.

Seen Reading

Bookninja links to Seen Reading, a wonderful blog tracking who's reading what around town. I've gone through it looking for me, but there's no sign yet.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Cat's Eye

Usually when I read marginalia from former academic selves of mine, it makes me want to gouge out my eyeballs. Particularly my high school self, which destroyed my Great Gatsby with banality, but my undergrad self was no treat either-- the river, as I noted in The Diviners, "=life". Now reading Cat's Eye, which I've read a thousand other times. One of those times was 1998 for a course in my first year at university, and I highlighted all important passages in green highlighter. No idiot comments, fortunately, just the highlighter. It's not so annoying actually, and this time, as I've made my own markings through it (which undoubtedly will make me want to kill myself in the future), I've become oddly conscious of some sort of dialogue with my former me. It's sort of wonderful.

Trick or Treat?

Trick-or-treating was a smash! Highlights were various princesses and tigers who were too little to walk, and the boy in the noose who was "an emo kid". Lowlights were the various boys in baggy pants who were "rappers", and me asking another boy in baggy pants (an old biddy voice), "Are you a rapper too?" except he was a soccer player.

Books in the News

Okay, I admit I like the Guardian Books Blog. I just hope the bloggish articles don't come to take the place of their regular books articles. On writing that first novel: "For years I was bogged down in the paraphernalia surrounding the writing of a novel--the specially sharpened pencil, the new notebook, just the right word processor. I eagerly hovered up snippets of information about how other people wrote their books as if hoping to discover a special secret that would enable me to write mine. With hindsight it is now clear that this hopelessly naive behaviour was a form of decades-long displacement activity that was actually preventing me from writing a novel, and that the only way to write a novel is indeed to write it, one painful word after another." On giving children books for Christmas. On what reviewers should think according to publishers. Outside of the blog, on Penguins: you know, I don't know if I like Penguin books because I like penguins, or if I like penguins because of the books. Alice Munro in The Guardian and in The Globe. Plath sonnet discovered.

Am devastated about Reese and Ryan.

Landed!

Today Stuart became a permanent resident of Canada! Here is a photo of my beloved, looking a little goofy. Congratulations to him.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Nothing to do with rainfall

Today I found out about the origins of bridal showers. Maybe you knew already; I didn't. It's a Dutch tradition, when the bride's father rejects the marriage and then the community rallies together to "shower" her with goods in place of a dowry.

Book Showers!

Goodbye Without Leaving was my favourite Laurie Colwin novel yet. I read it with delight, and it managed to talk about big things in a way that sat easily. Her writing is strong, and she writes narrators that confound me with their utter unclassifiability. You should read Laurie Colwin. I mean you. She's pretty likeable. Finished Nixon in China, which was a fascinating reading. MacMillan is so clever that she gets to impart gossip and call it scholarship, but of course there is more than that. Apart from Nixon's trip itself, I learned so many things about the history of Taiwan, Nixon and Kissenger, diplomacy in general (the word "obsequious" kept coming up), and appreciated the Asian lessons, especially considering how much the region has been in the news lately. Now reading Atwood's Survival to fill that gap in my CanLit knowledge. It's a delight, actually, and I'm out to embark on an Atwood kick for academic reasons, featuring (for nonacademic reasons) her latest Moral Disorder so stay tuned!

Wedding news...

Susannah, my dearest cousin/friend, is getting married! And to a boy who is wonderful no less! They announced it yesterday over deep-friend clam strips. In further nuptials news, plans for Bronwyn's wedding on the moors are well underway. Further, tomorrow I am picking up my altered bridesmaid dress for Katie's, and hopefully it will fit.

Writing Tunes

When I write, I require silence or else music to block unsilenceable outside noise. When I listen to music while writing, I can only listen to one song on repeat, or possibly an extremely seamless album. The top ten most played songs on my itunes are as follows:
Feel Flows: The Beach Boys
Turn Me On: Kevin Lyttle
Helpless: Buffy Saint-Marie
She's a Rainbow: The Rolling Stones
Crazy English Summer: Faithless
More Than This: Roxy Music
Sweet Thing: Van Morrison
Get Along With You: Kelis
Clocks: Coldplay
Tangled Up in Blue: Bob Dylan

Friday, October 27, 2006

Fun Without Prairie Fiction

We had a grand old time last night at the echolocation Halloween Party, and we were truly humbled by the amazing costumes assembled there. We didn't dress up. We are lame. I did, however, give my secret party trick the light of day (or night?) and composed two spontaneous folk songs- one about the Filthy Federlines and the other about robotic dogs (naturally). They were received warmly and I did so enjoy the night out. On the walk there, my mind was shouting to the beats of my feet, "Need drink. Need drink. etc." Drink was had. Delicious.

In my previous entry, when I mentioned that The Diviners was one of "those books", I meant that it is a book I intend to be revisiting as long as visiting hours are open. What I had neglected to realize, of course, is that it is also one of "those books" in the sense of the dreaded Prairie Fiction. Remember how Prairie Fiction nearly drove me to defenestration one month ago? Now, it is distinctly possible that my Prairie Fiction issues are linked to my menstrual cycle, but I think there is something further than that. I learned recently about certain types of fiction that cause post-traumatic stress disorder in readers, and I really think Prairie Fiction does that for me. I am not being completely dramatic. Books do tend to make their impressions upon me (ie when I read Fight Club and became psychotic?) I loved The Diviners, but it stirred something up in me that needs to be left alone in order me to be functional. I become overwrought. Sarah Harmer wrote "I'm a Mountain'; I'd love to hear "I'm a Prairie" and find out what it has to say, and then maybe I could get to the root of the problem.

I am now reading Laurie Colwin's Goodbye Without Leaving which should calm me down a bit.

Two fabulous acquisitions in our house: Atwood's The Penelopiad (which I read last winter and loved) and a pastry marble!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Stranger than Fiction

The Guardian has a books blog, which might turn out to be good. Or not. The movie Stranger than Fiction looks quite bookish, and I think I want to go see it. And I quite enjoyed the Guardian's podcast on creative writing programs. No definitive answers, which is best really, but the exchange of some good ideas.

I'm now rereading The Diviners, one of "those" books. I will return to it again and again, and find something new every time. I am finding present-day Morag resonates with me if a way she never did when I read this book before. Pioneers, oh pioneers.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

A great modifier

I'm sort of in love with the idea of a hyperbolic thesaurus. I don't know if one exists, or what good it would really be if one did, but I want one all the same. "cold: freezing, burrr-y, 50 below zero, the North Pole, arctic, glacial, polar, Siberian; and if still at a loss, of course "fcking" always makes a great modifier. I think I would be well-qualified to write a hyperbolic thesaurus, if such a position ever became available.

In exciting news (and speaking of cold),Laura has arrived at the South Pole and her first blog entry about it is fascinating. Guardian Podcast: can creative writing be taught (blah blah blah)? I'll give it a listen tonight o'er my knitting.

Back to work you.

Structure

From the Diane Setterfield piece in The Globe yesterday: "Then she began writing the first draft of The Thirteenth Tale over two years. “It was abominably bad when I reread it,” she said. 'It didn't make me think, can I write? It did make me think, can I structure a novel?'"

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

The Spirit of 56


Dinner was a success!

Dinner tonight

Tonight, I am commemorating the Hungarian Revolution by cooking a Hungarian meal for Stu, Curtis and Erin. Menu as follows: Cucumber Salad with Sour Cream (Tejfeles uborkasalata), Chicken Paprikas (Csirkepaprikas) with potato dumplings and Hungarian Apple Strudel (Almasetes) for dessert. Like most of my culinary escapades, if it's good it will be very very good, and if it's bad it will be horrible.

Quandary of the day: how did a package sent via surface mail by Stuart's Mum and Dad in the Northwest of England posted on Friday October 20th appear in our mailbox on Monday October 23? The postal system has much in common with my culinary escapades, but is all the more capricious.

Board Games

Diane Setterfield is in The Globe today. Also, The Report on Business's Board Games is out, which is particularly exciting as some of the research from the project I worked on this summer went toward it. Remember my corporate governance warrior alter-ego?

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield



I think some of my insomnia last night could be attributed to the fact that I was on the cusp of finishing The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield, which I've just got to the bottom of now. Remarkable before anything else is how positively bookish is The Thirteenth Tale. It's such a pretty book with a pile of books gorgeously illustrated on the dustjacket, and wonderful old-school patterned endpapers. Story starts in an antiquarian bookshop, narrated by a biographer about the life of a famous writer. Numerous 19th century novels are alluded to throughout, which would be especially charming to fans to such novels. And here we've also got a good old-fashioned mystery, with something a bit genre about it. So Setterfield is basically appealing to dorks the world over, but the mainstream will also approve, which is probably why she's has got herself a flying-off-the-shelves bestseller.

Now The Thirteenth Tale is not a flawless novel. It's Setterfield's first book, which is sometimes written all over its pages, and the prose was clunky in places. I get the sense that its charm is its greatest appeal; I certainly loved it for its bookishness. Amateur biographer Margaret Lea, raised in a bookshop, is summoned to write the biography of Vita Winter, "this century's Dickens". Winter doesn't get fast to the point, and by her story, we are led round in circles. This is a story of twinship, dilapitated manor houses, incest, madwomen stowed in various parts of houses, ghosts, murderers, wayward governesses and foundlings. Setterfield plays her fairly conventional material in new and surprising ways, with excellent control as the circles begin to tighten and we zero in on all unsaid. With the sort of plot that has been twisted time and time again, Setterfield manages to twist hers in a new way and I admit that I didn't see it coming.

I am curious to see what Setterfield will do next. How will she fare with a more conventional form of literary fiction? Will she pull off something similar in her next book? In terms of novelty, she will be hardpressed to out-do The Thirteenth Tale, and she could possibly produce something absolutely awful in an effort to do so. Her story is interesting- read her profile in The Guardian. Of course, we judge her by what she's done, not by what she's yet to do. Setterfield might just be a flash in the pan, but The Thirteenth Tale is still a pretty entertaining read.

According to the COED

curly-grass fern: n. a fern of Newfoundland, Nova Scotia, and New Jersey, schizaea pusilla, with wiry, grass-like fronds.

Is it not odd that this fern knows to only grow in places whose names start with some form of "new", even though the places are pretty far apart and/or are separate landmasses?

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Pickle Me This turns 6!

It's a big week here in PickleTown. You've probably noticed that Pickle Me This has had a makeover. What you might not be aware of is that Pickle Me This turns six years old this week! Though this blog has only lived here since March 2005, we've have been around longer than I've known the word "blog", in a variety of incarnations. Not that you'll be able to find them easily. The last thing I need is someone airing out my filthy early-twenties-angst dirty laundry. No way. We're all cleaner-than-clean here at Pickle Me This now, but even though our history is mostly inaccessible, it is loooong. So let us celebrate. All birthday greetings may be dropped in the comments box, of course.

Mochi sick

I thought Leah McLaren used her platform for good this week. On orgies of prizes. And the Hungarian Revolution is all over the news.

This weekend has been quiet and rainy, and I've been working all day since I woke up this morn. None of this bodes well for an interesting summation, but we did have sushi yesterday and it was delicious. Afterwards, we went to the Korean grocery store and got meron pan, Japanese curry and so much mochi we made ourselves sick. Friday night our basement neighbour woke us up at 4:30 screaming and crying. I could tell you more, but it only gets duller. Such is life, at the mo.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Saint Drabble

Am OUTRAGED by this sorry excuse for a review of The Sea Lady in today's G&M. All right, not that I've actually read the novel in question, because as I explained previously, I am waiting to savour it. But I've still got a right to outrage. My two main points are these: that the review gets the main character's name wrong throughout, and that the "review" is mainly composed of excerpts of Drabble's prose out of context. The scant criticism seems mainly to do with too many facts and too many mermaids, and little consideration of what Drabble might have intended of her devices. This review seemed unfair to me, though I will admit I'm perhaps a bit protective.

Friday, October 20, 2006

the lawn mower that is broken

It is curious that I no longer require the use of an index and can remember that the explanation for "that vs. which" lies on page 59 of my Strunk and White, and yet I never can remember what the explanation is.

Bits

Evening rolls in earlier this time of year, and walking home down darkened streets, I am attracted to light like a moth is.

The uncanny is the flipside of reason, all that which refuses to be contained within knowledge, and so, consequently, if new learning serves to bring about further bewilderment, the Enlightenment would have been a most perplexing period indeed.

I never expected to discover myself like this, still in bed half-way through a Friday morning, with you seven hours ahead of me indefinitely, part-way around the world.

Growing up in Las Vegas, England seemed so far away

There's lots of good pop-music news in The Guardian today. My favourite is the review of the new Robbie Williams' album. Apparently "Rudebox" is not very good. I quote (rather extendedly, but it's funny): "...it's hard to think of a song more likely to curb the listener's generosity of spirit than Rudebox's closing "secret" track, Dickhead. A woeful sub-Eminem rant, it features Williams gallantly threatening to set his retinue of bouncers on anyone who dares to criticise his music. By the time it concludes, puzzlingly, with the singer shouting "I've got a bucket of shit! I've got a bucket of shit!", one feels less inclined to say the kind thing than the cruel thing: you don't need to tell me that, pal, I've just spent the last hour examining it." An excerpt on Razorlight in Japan, which is exciting, because that's where Stuart and I first saw them, and because their wonderful "America" is predicted to be the UK number one this week. And, finally, I had no idea the Killers' new album was a mormon rock concept album.

I'm honestly so glad the forces conspired to send me two (2!) rejection letters in one day yesterday. No sense in dragging out my failures for weeks, and to buckle down and onward then. My big project has lately developed a new cohesion and I wrote a lovely little essay yesterday, and so I am not so disheartened. I'm still reading Nixon in China, and of course a novel on the side. Penelope Lively's Heat Wave. She really is one of my favourite authors; she's never aloof and it's as though she conjures her stories from my preoccupations, but perhaps that's a sort of self-absorbed way to regard them. Next up is The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield, which is the most beautiful new book I've come across since The Middle Stories or Elegance. It has the most gorgeous endpapers. I can't wait to read it.

Another article about the blighted East Midlands, Nottingham's urban decay and suburban gangs (big ups the Basford massive!). Interesting from an urban development point of view, but all the same, we lived there and it wasn't so bad.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Names

Until this morning, a character in my story was called Bob. I'm not sure why that was his name, as it's not a name I'm overly fond of, but it's been his name for nearly two years now and I'd sort of grown accustomed to it. But it didn't sit perfectly with me. When I hear the name "Bob" in real life, it brings about connotations I don't associate with my character. I'd sort of invested him with an "alternate Bob-ness", but of course a reader wouldn't get that. Readers have indicated this. And so this morning, with just a click ("change-all"), Bob became John. I am interested to see how this change alters my story, and how his new name changes his character. What elements will the fact of John-ness bring?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Sherrie Mitten?

The bad thing about the fictional creative writing workshops I mentioned is that on my bad days, I wonder exactly which pitiful-student-in-the-workshop-driving-my-instructor-to-suicide am I?

An all-night cosmic dance-a-thon

I loved Jennica Harper's book The Octopus and Other Poems and now she's coming to read in Toronto! I'm going. You should too.

8:00 pm, Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Box Salon Reading Series
Rivoli Cafe and Club
332 Queen Street West
Toronto

8:00 pm, Friday, October 27, 2006
I.V. Lounge
326 Dundas Street West
Toronto

7:30 pm, Thursday, November 2, 2006
Fellini's Shoe Cafe
226 Carlton Street
Toronto

The Great Pumpkin Shortage

I am the worst wife. Last night I heard a teaser from the CTV eleven o'clock news about a pumpkin shortage, and well, naturally I panicked. I told Stuart to get out to the shops first thing this morning and secure us a pumpkin; that there would probably be mass hysteria and he'd have to fight for his gourd. Brave noble man that he is, he set out this morning in the pouring rain to fetch us our punkin. However it seems that The Great Pumpkin Shortage is actually the plight of our American friends and Canadian patches are fine. I feel bad for sending Stu into the rain for nowt, and I will never trust Lloyd Robertson again.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Homesick

bMay I introduce the incredible Laura Conchelos, who has become blogolicious of late. Mainly just cuz she's moving to the South Pole this week. If you know Laura Conchelos, you are probably not altogether surprised to hear that, and if you don't know Laura Conchelos, you should. Sometimes she comes to my house bearing organic non-perishable goods she canned herself. I adore her. In addition, the ever-brilliant Erin has moved blogs, so update all links accordingly!

André Alexiswrites that the best English book in Canada probably shouldn't be French, and that translators are getting shafted. India Knight has edited an anthology called The Dirty Bits for Girls: "And of course one of the marvellous things about finding out about sex through books was that it instilled a love of reading". On growing up on MOR radio. The Governor General's shortlist- and no women! oh my. Now reading Barometer Rising and Nixon in China: The Week that Changed the World.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Go your own way


Britt slept over Friday night, and Saturday morning we awoke bright an early to be in the audience at the live-taping of Go at the CBC, which was enormously fun and also means I've now said the word "sex" on national radio (not my choice; it was the question they gave me!). I spent the afternoon reading the newspaper, napping and devouring an enthralling novel (see below) that got me into such a state of Britishness after reading an account of afternoon tea at the Orchard Tea Rooms in Granchester, I ended up baking scones at 8:00 on Saturday night (and they were good!). Today's highlight was a trip to Riverdale Farm (with a looong walk there and back), and it was excellent as usual and the lambs have become large.

One Good Turn

I've raved about Kate Atkinson before, when I read Case Histories last summer and when I reread Behind The Scenes at the Museum in August. She writes with the social and historical awareness of Margaret Drabble, but with the dark edge of Hilary Mantel, though of course her works are also startlingly original (and challenge genres). Kate Atkinson has yet to fail me, and in her new novel One Good Turn, she has truly crafted what her subtitle suggests: "a jolly good mystery".

Yes, indeed, a mystery. I have spoken to fans of early-Atkinson who've gone off her a bit since her characters took up sleuthing, but none of them had actually read the books in question (Case Histories, and now its companion One Good Turn [though the two books both stand up alone]). I am no mystery fan (my interest sort of waned with Nate the Great) but I'll read anything by Kate Atkinson, and moreover Behind the Scenes... really had a mystery at its heart. The genre suits Atkinson well, and she writes with her signature wit and brilliance.

In One Good Turn, Atkinson expects her readers to hang on tight, because the ride goes so fast. Jackson Brodie from Case Histories has stumbled onto a whole new batch of mystery at the Edinburgh Festival, but he is just one character in an excellent ensemble which includes a suburban housewife with a trick up her sleeve, a ruthless Russian call-girl, a fourteen year-old shoplifter and has-been comedian. Atkinson's tongue-in-cheek depiction of the publishing world is particularly humourous, as seen by a writer of a particularly bad mystery series, and the book's subtle CSI references indicate that Atkinson is very aware of the world she's writing in. The story itself is so tight, admirable considering how many pieces had to be tied together in the end. The pace is quick, twists are so surprising, the end was a stunner. One Good Turn was simply a delight.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Freaky

Got a terrible case of the lurgy; we've had snowstorms already and last night the power was out for six hours, so we went out to Mexitaco at Bloor and Shaw, which was fun, and then we came home and I had to read by candlelight, re-rereading actually- Away by Jane Urquhart (pour l'ecole).

Ne pas pour l'ecole, I just finished reading Blue Angel by Francine Prose, and it was incredible. Written in third-person, Prose gives an illusion of objectivity that duped me at times, and once I realized I'd been taken in, I felt sort of dirty. The narrative voice was an absolute feat, but moreover the book was funny, smart and twisted, and the writing workshop was priceless. The satire was complicated and many-edged, and left me feeling uneasy, which, coming from a bundle of paper, is a powerful impact.

Nigel

I never mentioned that the story below was my submission to the McSweeneys Thirteen Writing Prompts Contest. A losing submission, obviously, but I still wanted to share it because I had fun with it.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Shore Tweak

Now rereading Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood (for school), and enjoying it as I always enjoy meeting Atwood's work again. It changes just as I do. Coming up is Blue Angel by Francine Prose, because I am fond of fictional creative writing workshops (as in Mean Boy and Finishing School).

Fabulous pieces by writers I admire: Lionel Shriver on on the weirdness of Christ-loving teens; Heather Mallick from an atheist's point of view; and Ms. Mallick again with a kick in the pants for women, feminist and otherwise. Lynn Crosbie on a certain lack of puissance in the pro-choice movement. The Booker Prize is awarded to Kiran Desai. All the nominees digested. On Hungarian cinema. Penelope Lively likes the new Mary Lawson in The Guardian. Jenny Diski has a blog. Apparently, only one of the ten best British novels of the past 25 years were written by women.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Autumnally Brazen





We've had a wonderful Thanksgiving in Peterborough. We baked three apple pies, ate too much turkey, saw friends oldest and bestest, drank too much wine, felt sick, went for a drive, went for a walk, enjoyed the sunshine, enjoyed my mom, and spent a weekend that isn't even finished yet.

Happy Thanksgiving!



Friday, October 06, 2006

Nigel and the Greatest Canadian Hero

Nigel somersaulted into the world and sniffed. Peering out from under an earlobe, the female body figured below him such a substandard vessel for an imp. For the next thirteen years, Nigel's abilities were utterly wasted as he grew fat and mired in colonial domesticity, all the while he could have been hanging from the ear of a warrior, whispering the way to victory.

The War of 1812 was no reprieve from drudgery. The woman's world was far from the battlefield, and after her husband was injured at Queenston Heights, her life became even duller, devoted to his care. When the Americans took Queenston in 1813, Nigel's impotence breezed up around him like a stink as the woman waited on American soldiers billeted in her home and Nigel, locked to her lobe, was forced to bear witness to every blue coat dragged across the washboard, each pot of enemy sustenance boiling on the stove.

One morning, the woman cooked breakfast, Nigel hammocked in her hair, lulled by her stirring the oatmeal. The soldiers at the table behind her.
"We'll leave tonight and be at Beaver Dams by morning," one said.
"Victory will secure our control of the Niagara Peninsula," said another.
"Fitzgibbon won't be expecting us," said the soldier beside him. "The element of surprise should win us advantage."
Listening, Nigel's languid heart jolted back to life and he couldn't help himself. Nigel bit the woman's neck, and she started. Reached up and rubbed where his teeth had been. But still, she stirred; she didn't even raise her head. And so Nigel swung up from her lobe and hung from the helix.
"You've got to warn the British of the attack," he said in his loudest voice, which was a murmur in the back of her mind.
The woman stirred on.
Nigel said, "The fate of British North America rests with you."
The woman showed no sign of hearing. A soldier belched behind her.
Nigel said, "Never has King and Country required your service more."
The oatmeal came to a boil, and the woman spooned out three bowls for the soldiers and another for her husband, convalescing upstairs. She served the men, and went to her husband, placed the steaming bowl beside him and kissed his sleeping forehead.
"There isn't time to linger," said Nigel, who was practicing back flips from the top of her ear, returning strength to his arms. It had been years since he'd felt so limber.
From the pantry, the woman packed five apples and a jar of pickles. The soldiers were shaving at the table with axes and they looked up when she came into the kitchen wearing her shawl.
"You've got to quell their suspicions," said Nigel. "Tell them..."
But the woman needed no prompting. "I'm taking the big cow to sell in town. You'll have to get your own supper tonight," she said. She was already out the kitchen door, and toward the barn. She tied a rope around the cow and led it down the path, out the gate.

Pulsing with duty and the swiftness of the woman's pace, Nigel hung on tight. For 32 kilometers, he travelled, tucked into her ear. Rain came midmorning and Nigel watched the torrent from his shelter, the woman's hair wet to strings and her shawl soaked through. She walked along the Niagara Escarpment through St. David's, Homer, St. Catharines and Short Hills, crossing field and bog between the towns. The woman ate pickles and fed apples to the cow. The cow walked with brambles and burrs stuck to its coat. The road stretched long before them and the woman's boots squelched. Nigel glanced down at her face, freckled with mud. Her hands were raw and bleeding from the cow's rope on her palms. At any moment, he feared she would turn around for home, which would be agony when, for the first time in this life, Nigel could foresee a finer fate than reincarnation.

Eventually, they blazed upon a group of Native warriors, camped in a clearing. The woman showed no sign of shrinking in their presence.
"Can you take me to Fitzgibbon?" she asked, her strong voice surprising after hours of silence.
The men eyed her carefully. Nigel rubbed his little hands together, hoping the friction would free the electricity compounding in his body.
"I have a message for Fitzgibbon," said the woman. She touched her ear, and Nigel kissed the tip of her index finger.
When the men were convinced she was serious, they consented to lead her to the Lieutenant.
And so the journey continued. The weather had settled, but the cow was tired and Nigel ached from the bumps in the road. When they reached their destination, the woman tied her cow up, and Lieutenant Fitzgibbon came outside to meet the curious crew.
"I have come to warn you," said the woman, mud dripping from her eyelashes. "The Americans are planning an attack on Beaver Dams in the morning."
"Are you certain, Mrs.—?" And the Lieutenant stopped.
"Mrs. Secord, Sir," said the woman. "Mrs. Laura Secord. In my kitchen back in Queenston, Sir. I heard them with my own ears. I am very certain."
Fitzgibbon believed her. Nigel turned a back flip and punched the air. They took their leave soon after, leaving the Lieutenant to his preparation. With an attack to counter in just a matter of hours, he would not be sleeping that night. The woman and her cow walked until nightfall, tracing their arduous path toward home, where her husband was waiting, and where the soldiers had vacated, unaware that their battle was already lost.

The Americans were defeated at Beaver Dams in the morning, losing their hold in Upper Canada. Laura Secord lived for another 45 years, before being rewarded a mere one hundred pounds by the Prince of Wales. And Nigel, having inspired enough heroism for one lifetime, was somersaulted somewhere altogether new.

The Creation

I suppose my interest in scientific literature had something to do with my husband's B.Sc., but I mark the start of its development with the story "Miss Ormerod" by Virginia Woolf, from The Common Reader Vol. 1.. "Miss Ormerod" was 19th Century British entomologist Eleanor Ormerod and Woolf's fictionalized biography demonstrated to me how well a passion for science translates into good literature. Fortuitously, I was signed up for a course called "Literature and the Environment" the next term, and I went on to read such works as Walden, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, Servants of the Map, and last summer I read The Selfish Gene and Silent Spring. Last night I finished reading The Creation* by Edward O Wilson and it's my favourite piece of SciLit yet.

The Creation is written as a letter to Southern Baptist Preacher, pleading not for common ground, but for a common cause: The Stewardship of Creation. The situation is dire, Wilson admits in gorgeous prose, but it is not too late, and he goes on to state his case in chapters including "Ascending to Nature", "Exploration of a Little-Known Planet", "How to Learn Biology and How to Teach it", "How to Raise a Naturalist" and finally, "An Alliance for Life".

Like Ormerod, Wilson is an entomologist and magnifies the amazing world of insects, this "microwilderness". All living ants (there may be 10 thousand trillion) weigh as much as the Earth's population of human beings. That there are more bacteria cells in our bodies than our own cells, and by some perspectives we could be seen as solely their vessals. He writes, "Each species is a small universe in itself, from its genetic code to its anatomy, behaviour, life cycle, and environmental role, and a self-perpetuating system created during an almost unimaginably complicated evolutionary history. Each species merits careers of scientific study and celebration by historians and poets. Nothing of that kind could be said for each proton or hydrogen atom. That, in a nutshell Pastor, is the compelling moral argument from science for saving Creation". (123)

*Wilson is listed as "E Wilson" on the amazon listing, which means he is not linked to his myriad other works, which appear as authored by "Edward O Wilson"

UPDATE- Science Top Tens at Guardian Books.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Margaret Atwood

Atwood is a polarizing force. Heather Mallick says that disliking her is an act of misogynism. I'm not sure I agree, but many people dislike her rather senselessly.

When The Guardian Books did a feature on Canadian fiction in which readers submitted their CanLit suggestions, the number of Canadians who responded solely to rubbish Atwood was quite astounding, most of them beginning their comments with "I've only read The Handmaid's Tale, but..."

When The Globe ran a Margaret Atwood interview a few months back, I was fascinated to see the comments readers left (how much I detest readers' comments on online newspapers is another story), admittedly mostly from men, glibly wanking something like "Yawn, Atwood, stupid b*tch, can't write sh*te, CanLit is crap, typical of The Globe, wank wank wank, I've read Handmaid's Tale and it wasn't very good." Etc.

When I was at the Vic booksale on Monday, two undergraduate-appearing students were sorting through the CanLit table. One held up a copy of Survival to her friend, and said, "How about this one?" The other, sounding like she was repeating something she was very sure of, said, "Oh no, not Atwood. Can't stand her novels. She just writes the same book over and over again." Her friend said, "Survival isn't a novel." The anti-Atwoodian said "oh" and then rapidly changed the subject.

I don't understand how people can have such strong feelings for an author they've hardly read. (In addition, I must suggest that if you read any book in high school [ie Handmaids Tale, or Stone Angel for that matter], it doesn't count as actually reading it and if you read it again, it will probably seem quite different). The undergrad's assertion is so ridiculously off; the spectrum of Margaret Atwood is broad enough that there is probably something there to please everyone. And if one does give Atwood a fair try, and comes up unsatisfied, then why not just go read something else? Why all this time so devoted to badmouthing someone whose work so many other people clearly enjoy? Why not direct that energy toward championing a writer you do like?

A friend of mine maintains that anti-Atwoodism is simply a matter of jealousy, and I'm inclined to agree; the woman is indomitable. And I think Heather Mallick is a little right about the misogyny; it drives some men a little mad to see a woman so successful, a woman who will not be marginalized. The whole thing is typically Canadian in innumerable ways, and absolutely annoying.

Shine On

Hooray for productivity! Because I was so good yesterday and did all that had to be done (reading, writing, laundry), I got to go to bed with Shine On Bright and Dangerous Object by Laurie Colwin, which has been an absolute pleasure to read so far. And it's brilliant to read for pleasure when you've earned it.

Learn how to write an ekphrasis. Russell Smith on tenses. Here for Random Acts of Poetry.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Magyar

Like most girls, I went through my Hungarian Revolution phase, and though I am less obsessed than I once was, it's still my favourite Cold Ward Historical Moment. And it's on my mind lately, as well as all over the news, due to its 50th anniversary this month. (It's interesting that it's also 50 years since the Suez Crisis, which so overshadowed the Hungarian Revolution, and yet I've heard much less about that). Anyway, I was directed to www.reimaginefreedom.org, by the Hungarian Cultural Center in New York, and it's a fascinating website. I've decided to have a Hungarian Freedom Fighters dinner on the 23rd, with chicken paprikash and the rest of the menu tba.

Such is the life

The book people outdid themselves and my copy of The Sea Lady arrived yesterday, but I can't bring myself to read it. I remember finishing The Red Queen last winter, and the terror of having all the Margaret Drabbles behind me, and I don't want to face that again. I will savour the prospect of this novel for a while I think, seeing as I am up to my elbows in CanLit and won't have the time to savour the actual reading anytime soon. But I am so looking forward to reading it, and inevitably adoring it. And don't think my expectations are set too high; Ms. Drabble has never failed to meet them.

I am writing this entry on a break from writing, which today is devoted to. I have been reasonably successful at resisting the urge to google Tina Yothers and other relevant pop culture figures (this is a lie; this morning I watched Family Ties clips on YouTube, but such acts have been kept to the minimum. Damn wireless internet) and I am being pretty productive. Laundry has just been installed in our basement, so no more trips to the laundrette for me, though there is a rumour that the dryer is broken already we shall see. Am a bit tired, as thunderstorms awoke us and ours at 6:30 this morning for the second day in a row. Now reading Green Grass Running Water by Thomas King, and I'm really enjoying it. I've never read anything by him before.

Plenty of book news: The Giller Shortlist is announced. Coverage at CBC. Book City's founder's favourite books. Top ten fictional poets. The problem with literary how-to guides.

Must go wash dishes and then investigate dryer situation. Such is the life of a student/housewife.

Monday, October 02, 2006

So long Vegreville...

Citizenship and Immigration Canada is pleased to announce that the processing of my husband's application for permanant residence has been completed! A local immigration office will be in contact with us concerning his permanant resident status. This is good news, as currently he's on a temporary visa that doesn't allow him to leave the country and makes it difficult to obtain permanent employment. It all comes together eventually, fabulously.

Now for CSI Miami...

There is a hardbacked Drabble heading my way

My amazon order has been shipped!

At the Vic Book Sale

I went mad at Half-Price Monday and acquired the following:
Human Croquet by Kate Atkinson, because I love the other books by her I've read; Survival by Margaret Atwood just because; Atwood's The Journals of Susannah Moodie for my ghost course; Babel Tower by AS Byatt because sometimes I really like her; FINDS OF THE DAY Goodbye Without Leaving, Shine On, Bright and Dangerous Object, Another Marvelous Thing and A Big Storm Knocked it Over ie almost everything by Laurie Colwin; Crocodile Soup by Julia Darling, because I liked her Guardian Poetry workshop way back when; An American Childhood by Annie Dillard, because I used to own it and left it in Japan; Mavis Gallant's Paris Notebooks, because I read it years ago and loved it; The Remains of the Day because I've never read it and Kim Dean said I should; Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri because Kim Dean picked it up and said "Read this" just as Amy Tan said she would on the book's back cover; Heat Wave and Spiderweb by Penelope Lively because I LOVE her; Martin Sloane because it was a dollar; Moo because I'm in the mood for campus fiction; Park and Ride by Miranda Sawyer because I've read it and liked it, and I'm up for "adventures in suburbia"; and The Queen and I by Sue Townsend, which also used to belong to me but I had to leave it behind in England. All this for $27. Oh yes, it had been a fine fine day. It's nice that I like authors that are so unfashionable I can pick them up in droves for pennies.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Dip Surfeit

Oh, a most pleasant weekend has been mine. I met with Katie on Friday evening so she could assist me in a shoe shop; I needed black heels to accompany my bridesmaid's dress for her upcoming wedding. I got a pair I adore, and then we shared a dessert, and had a wonderful while together. Last night, we had a small gathering at ours, and I was in a determinedly hostessy state of mind and cooked for four hours in preparation. Unfortunately, I'm not a brilliant hostess and it was too late when I realized that my menu consisted of various dips and dippers, which hardly constitutes variety, no matter how scrumptious my roasted red pepper/white bean dip was. So I made mini bruschetta-like pizzas, and cupcakes too, and drank enough wine that I forgot to worry about it. Topic of the evening focussed mainly upon what must have been going on back in Gomorrah. Sodom- pretty straight-forward- but I can't imagine what they must have got up to down in G-Town. I missed Nuit Blanche, but that's because I couldn't figure out what it was. And now we're about to embark upon an autumnal walk. It's not raining at the mo, which is strange for a Sunday.

Nick Hornby on public reading. Belinda likes sex.

I've displayed excellent restraint this weekend, and have saved myself from the Victoria College Booksale. I am going tomorrow, which is half-price day, and then I can spend spend spend without a hint of remorse.

A Waiting


The Sea Lady is released in Canada tomorrow. My copy has been preordered for ages, but Amazon informs me it won't arrive for at least a week or so. And so the wait continues, but you can't say we're not ready.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Please insert change

I knew that Every Day is Mother's Day would cure all that ailed me. It was wonderful and horrifying; Hilary Mantel has such a gloriously sick mind. In this book, Colin is having an affair with Isabel, and, as it's the mid 1970s, he frequently needs to come up with reasons to nip out to the phonebox and call her. And I couldn't help thinking about cellphones as a plot device, a topic that has fascinated me, mainly in film actually. There are all kinds of movies, books and television shows that wouldn't have been remotely plottable before cellphones came into use- CSI would struggle, 24, various ransom stories. However the phonebox is a plot device all its own- I'm thinking Rosemary's Baby, Superman of course, and obviously Phone Booth. In addition, I can't help but think of all the old storylines that could have been cleared up in just five minutes, if a cellphone had only fallen from the sky.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Swing Low

I've been feeling a bit crap the last couple of days, worrying about absolutely everything which led to my being put to bed with a migraine last night, my computer has gone haywire, and I've become an emotional idiot, bawling upon finishing Swing Low and reading As For Me and My House, despairing I was Mrs. Bentley. I tend towards dramatics, much as I attempt otherwise. I really can be a pain in the ass. I am going to stop reading books about the prairies though, or I will definitely require defenestration.

And so Hilary Mantel is up next with Every Day is Mother's Day. We are having a very small party-like gathering on Saturday, which I'm looking forward to. My new Margaret Drabble arrives in just about a week. Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow...

Monday, September 25, 2006

Monday

I just finished reading City of the Mind by Penelope Lively, who is one of my favourite authors, and every one of her books I like better than the last. City of the Mind is to place, what her Moon Tiger was to history. The city as a symbol, and the very specific history of London. Loved it. I especially love how Lively's characters always have jobs. A job is vital to good characterization (for example Perowne the neurosurgeon in Saturday, or Reta Winters the writer in Unless) in contemporary work especially. "What do you do?" is so defining. The last Penelope Lively book I read was The Photograph, in which the main character was a garden designer, and in City of the Mind, the character was an architect, and a writer can show so much about a character by showing how he/she performs their job, engages with colleagues, and what led them to their field. It's fascinating to learn too, about a profession as foreign as another language (neurosurgery anyone?). It just makes that character's world so much more alive.

And I am back at my part time post at the library, which means I come home with more and more books every day. Today I took out Swing Low: A Life in order to learn a bit more about depression, as a character in my story suffers with it. And also got my hands on new books I was a Child of Holocaust Survivors and Creation by EO Wilson.

Beyond books, ah but not quite. Yesterday was spent at Word on the Street and it was a lot of fun. Echolocation was well-represented I thought and I gave a bookmark to the mayor.

Today's highlight was an epistle from my epistolary-pal Bronwyn. She has asked me to be her matron of honour, and I don't think I've ever been so honoured. I didn't even dare to imagine such a thing would happen. I would have been happy just to be there. And now I will be there, but with a dress on. Whoever would have thought, when Bronwyn and I met during the summer of 2001 in Toronto that just a few years later we would be bridesmaiding for each other at our respective English weddings to a wonderful pair of Northern blokes. Life is funny. Hmmmm.

Am obsessed with The Weather Network's School Days Pages. They tell you what to wear to and from school, which is a service I've been longing for forever. Don't know how practical it really is though. This morning I should have worn snowboots, a parka and gloves, and then wellingtons and a slicker on my home. It's the winter clothes again tomorrow morn, and then a light spring jacket in the afternoon. I don't think I own that many clothes. And the winter boots are really quite premature, really. 8 degrees is hardly freezing.

Friday, September 22, 2006

There's lots of echolocation news....

First, my story "Carousel" appears in the latest issue. It's not available online, but for $8 a whole book containing it could be yours. See site for details.

Second, www.echolocation.ca has been overhauled and the site looks really excellent.

Third, I am the new prose editor of echolocation, beginning with the next issue. We are now accepting submissions and naturally, I am really after some quality prose. See submission details.

And finally, I'll be at Word on the Street on Sunday. Come to buy back issues, to subscribe, and to pick up your complimentary bookmark.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

The Queue

My admission of the day is that I like Stephanie Klein, the Carrie Bradshaw of the blogosphere. I encountered her while researching my seminar on blooks last spring, and learned about her six-figure deal with Reganbooks. And after checking out her blog, not even that extensively, I realized I really couldn't hate her because she is so heartbreakingly earnest and sort of lovely. Anyway, the point is that I put her book on hold at the library today. I don't think this means that I am a bad person. It does mean, however, that I will be reading it before Reading Like a Writer or Special Topics in Calamity Physics. I am 33rd in line for Klein's book, 90th for Prose's and 230th for the Popular Ms. Pessl.

Interesting

My character, who is speaking in 1970, probably would not have used the verb "upgrade", and would definitely not have used the adjective "upgraded". She could have used the noun "upgrade" when talking about a hill, but only if her vocabulary was a little archaic.

Saturday

I would sum up Saturday by Ian Mcewan with the word "devastating". Numerous times, I could not bear the tension and had to flip ahead just to make sure things worked out (and this is not my usual practice). The climax was incredibly awful (in a marvelously written way) and it was not until the book was just about over that I realized I had hardly breathed for most of the end of it. And when I was finished, I felt spent, as though I'd been crying for an hour. Not that I was upset or even sad, but just so swept up in the narrative and it made me want to crawl up onto my rooftop and shout something. And so devastating, but incredible. There is beauty in this text, and as I finished reading this on my front porch under blue skies, I couldn't help but see it everywhere. I found particularly interesting what a bearing history has had on this book. It takes place in 2003, and it's sort of amazing to think of how different it would read if the world had gone another way. Which makes me think of how this works with so many works. How history keeps on reworking texts for us, developing new approaches and meanings. The multudinous possibilities.

Question

How do people who can't/don't finish a certain book feel they have authority to post an amazon review of said book?

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Wednesday Brunch

Today Stuart and I got to have brunch on a weekday, which felt indulgent but is actually quite practical. Our local brunch spot has 45 minute waits on the weekends, but today we were seated upon arrival, and coffee/tea is free Monday-Friday. And it was wonderful to hang out with Stuart in the afternoon. He's back to work tomorrow so we'll have little of that in the future. Exciting plans are on the horizon for him job-wise. He's doing really well, and I am so proud of him.

The rewrite continues, slow-going but I am happy with the results. It is such a different process than writing the first draft was. It's a lot easier in many ways, because I've got so much to work with, but now I am also getting down to the tedious details of euphony, and it's not the same creative flourish. I am enjoying it though, and I see how completely necessary a rewrite can be. Some of my first draft was decidedly pukey and objects and ideas disappeared into thin air, but I think it's getting better now.

Now reading Saturday by Ian McEwan, which, I have been told, might change my life. And I suspect that could be true.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

How to get your mitts on one

And so everybody's asking: How do I get a copy of I wish my enemies were Russians, the new release from Pickle Me This Press? Well it's easy. Either you remind me and I'll bring along a copy when I see you next for just $5. Or we can send it to you, upon receipt of a cheque for $7 (which includes shipping and handling. Oh handling, it does get expensive). Email me at kerryclare at gmail dot com and I will send you the address of Pickle Me This Press Headquarters, which of course I can't post online, or there'd just be crowds lined up at the door.

In praise of white linen.

I just finished the wonderful Nora Ephron Collected, which provided a take on the 1970s women's movement I have never found elsewhere- that of the skeptical feminist with a sense of humour. I enjoyed it. It also made clear that nothing ever changes, which was apparent upon reading Ephron's essay about the very first reality television program. Now reading The Afterlife of George Cartwright (for school), which takes place at that ground upon which I used to stomp- Nottinghamshire. Cartwright's family's house was where the Marnham Cooling Station stands now, and we used to go by it on the train! The book is a bit boyish for my liking, but I'm enjoying it.

~Where war and wrack and wonder/ By shifts have sojourned there,/ And bliss by turns with blunder/ In that land's lot had share.~ I'm sad about violence in Budapest. It comes at a funny time, as the fiftieth anniversary of the Hungarian Revolution is coming up and it would be nice to have a happier ending to that story. I had a fascinating visit to Budapest in 2002 and whilst there, I inadvertantly fell into the middle of a political demonstration, which is one of the stranger things that have ever happened to me. (But not as strange as when a kiosk fell on me. Also in Budapest). I had gone to see the parliament buildings, and a crowd was gathered there, protesting dubious election results, if I remember correctly. Police moved in with riot gear. It was surreal and I couldn't believe I was standing in the middle of it. Sometimes calm in Europe is so easy to take for granted, and we can forget what a lack of precedent there has been for sixty years of peace(ishness) there. It's just as complicated as anywhere else in the world. And Thailand too, another place that features heavily in my personal map of the world. Of course, I think about bad things that happen everywhere, but I think that as a North American, one gets so accustomed to bad things happening "over there" that when "over there" is close to home, it makes a difference. Right or wrong.

Margaret Atwood's new book does well in The Guardian. On mainstream poetry. The CBC Chair resigns for talking about bowel movements and bestiality (we wondered if someone had been evesdropping on us by mistake). And The Long Pen tries again, this weekend at The Word on the Street. How exciting! echolocation is going to be there too. Drop by for a free bookmark!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

I wish mine enemies


Today was good because it was a Trinity Bellwoods day. And because the newest book from Pickle Me This Press is now on sale for $5 per copy. Today is still good because we are roasting a chicken for dinner, and because that sunshine was not just a rumour.

But there's no fight in him.

I took a creative writing course six years ago, during my third year in university. I came across one of my former classmates last week, and we were reminiscing, and so as a result, this morning I looked through the anthology of poetry our class produced that year. What I noticed is that the more self-referential amongst us (and there were quite a few, this was a creative writing class after all), in our poetry frequently advertised our ages, which were twenty or twenty-one years old at that time. It was a bit fascinating to notice; I remember doing that, and it meant something then, but I can't remember what now. I can't imagine writing "I am twenty-seven" and expecting it to mean anything, and I don't know if that's because twenty-seven actually means nothing, or if I'm just less obsessed with the wonder of my own existence.

In Saturday night news, we got to hang out with Erin Smith (who has a new blog), and eat Greek food in her 'hood. It was fabulous, but moreso because after we went home and did Sing Along With Annie from her Annie DVD. Her cat got upset during "Tomorrow" because it hates high pitched noises. It got increasingly agitated during "Hard Knock Life", and sat beside me on the arm of the sofa, meowing. The cat lost the plot during "Well, how about Champion?" and while we were singing "Rover, why not think it over?", the cat lifted up its paw, and punched me in the head. I didn't let the assault get in between me and my music. Rover was a perfect name for that dumb looking dog.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Now doing


Now Doing.

A Big Storm Knocked It Over

I loved A Big Storm Knocked It Over by Laurie Colwin. It was a light read, and I finished it in one rather busy day. It would probably fall into the "chick lit" genre, but in a more "You're a woman, ergo you'll probably like this" way, than "This is chick lit, ergo it's crap." I'm not sure what the difference is. I did read this in a hardcover library copy as opposed to a pastel paperback, which might have left me more open-minded at the outset. It was written in the early nineties by an author with twenty-five years experience, as opposed to a cookie cutter text turned out by a journalist-turned-novelist during the past couple of years, and you can feel the difference. It's not for everyone, but I loved this book because it was deliciously happy. It was about a woman who loved her husband and loved him still at the end, and he was a good guy all the way through (a novel premise!). The main character surprised me throughout, with her neuroticisms, quirks, intelligence and funny inner monologue. The snark and the daring was just perfectly spread. Sadly, Colwin died before this, her final book, was published, but she's written plenty of others and I intend to make my way through them over time. And aren't her titles fabulous?

The problem with finishing a draft of manuscript is that as much as I have all that, I have nothing and have to start all again. That starts today, after the laundry. Yesterday I read through it, and much of it pleased me, but it's still a long road ahead. Now rereading The Double Hook, which I like a lot second time around. Also reading Nora Ephron Collected, which is fabulous. And still ahead this weekend, dinner in Greektown tomorrow, and they're calling for sun, for the first weekend in over a month.

Curious

I am curious as to why the recent shooting in Montreal has provoked debate once again about bullying in schools, the social ostracization of young people, and what would drive one to become such a monster. The murderer was twenty-five years old, an age at which a person would normally take responsibility for their own behaviour. There is no excuse for what he did; I refuse to sympathize with this fully grown man stuck in a pathetic prolonged adolescence. High school is tough, but I've found that there is a place for almost everybody in adulthood (frighteningly so, sometimes) and that when one can't find their own way, society isn't always the problem.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Currently fascinated by...


The Shell Oil Tower (aka Bulova Tower) at the CNE, 1955-1986.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Long List

Upsetting revelations have included that I recently became the sort of person who stows tissue on their person and then forgets about it. Does that make sense? It was devastating. It was definitely a one-off, and I promise not to do it again. Otherwise, it's all back to school and I am reading and learning, and I finished my summer job today so that I could do that absolutely properly. I recently read A Perfect Night to Go to China and I didn't like it much, which is significant, because you don't often hear me say that about a book. I also read Angel by Elizabeth Taylor, which was very Nancy Mitford. Now reading (for school) The Double Hook by Sheila Watson, which is intriguing. Next up (for fun) is A Big Storm Knocked it Over by Laurie Colwin. And I got my TA reading list today, which means a dream has finally come true and someone is paying me to read books. Oh yes, and The Giller Long List here. Plus, sign up for your copy of I wish my enemies were Russians, the new release from Pickle Me This Press. Copies should be bound this weekend and on sale next week for $5 each.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Finished. For now. Until tomorrow when I start again.

I've been wary of taking too much satisfaction from sheer volume, ever since the teacher librarian at my elementary school informed me that it was "Quality, not quantity" that was important when evaluating one's grade three report on cats. But when "just getting the thing done" has been the whole object, I can't help but be satisifed with 143501 words, and 400 pages, and a beginning, a middle and an end. The rest, I can take care of later. A draft this summer was my goal, and school starts tomorrow. Otherwise, this all means the weekend sort of fell by the wayside. I knit a lot, and read the newspaper, but mostly I just wrote. This afternoon, I went to the now-annual CW bbq, and was reunited with many familiar faces, and found some new ones. After days shut away, slogging away at this tale of mine, the stimulation was a bit much, but I really enjoyed myself and I am so in that fall-jacket, bonfire, back to school mood.

I loved the headline for the Margaret Atwood article in The Globe yesterday: The Priorities: first writing, then the laundry, as I sit here on the cusp of my temporary new incarnation as student/housewife. I also cannot wait for Atwood's new book. Also excellent, Rex Murphy on satire, and everything I never knew about the Bloor Street Swiss Chalet. Stephanie Klein in The Guardian. Ian Rankin on surprising parallels between fact and fiction. A tribute to Roald Dahl. Calvin Trillin in The Globe (and his Alice Off The Page is going to become a book).

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Papa's bank book wasn't big enough

What transpired yesterday was an absolute miracle. Shockingly so. Yesterday afternoon we completed our Christmas Shopping for the British Family, as last December I vowed we would while we traipsed around nightmarish shopping malls seeking that perfect something for Stuart's dad, and then spent a small fortune sending it all by air. Best of all, all the gifts are excellent, and they're going to be wrapped and packed this week and sent by sea with plenty of time. And it was an altogether pleasant afternoon, in the uncrowded shopping mall. A bit of a waste of a sunny day, but worth it. It was a combination Christmas/Back to School shopping venture, and we got a whole mess of new clothes. Last Fall, we were too poor to buy clothes and the year before that we lived in the land of the pygmy peoples, and as a result, we're even more raggedy than can be expected from people with our lack of fashion sense. No longer however. New jeans, and a replacement hoodie for the one I bought in August 2002, and best of all a wonderful autumn jacket of my dreams, brown with a green cordoroy collar and I have started a matching scarf already. Stuart also got some new clothes, and when we got home we overhauled the closets and Stuart threw away anything he wore in first-year university, as that was in a previous century. And we also cleaned up my desk area for back to school, and now everything is tidy and orderly and there is a choreless weekend straight ahead.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Boogie with a suitcase

The story I'll come to tell about the morning my front brake snapped will be much more dramatic than this rather soporific truth. I wasn't going very fast, and I stopped well in time, and more than any escape from certain death, I am left with a broken brake I've got to pay to get repaired. Yawn. And such is Thursday.

Bookishly, I've read Liar by Lynn Crosbie this week, which reminded me of The Year of Magical Thinking in surprising ways. Also read As I Lay Dying, and now reading Heave by Christy Ann Conlin, which I've wanted to read for awhile. I'm not quite into it yet, but I think I'll like it.

Otherwise, Germaine Greer's take on the crocodile hunter. Ali Smith's common ground. Dionne Brand wins The Toronto Book Award. And in news so exciting I can hardly sit in my chair, Paul Burrell has written a second book about buttling Diana, this one entitled "The Way We Were".

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

When I was young and in my prime

Poetry and prose don't easily mix, and the combination is so often done badly. My biggest problem with the poetry collection/novel hybrid is that there so often seems little occasion for the poetry. And so in the case of When I Was Young and In my Prime by Alayna Munce, I must say stress first that it works, and that it works so well. The narrator is a poet, and the plot involves the decline of her grandparents in their old age, and also the dynamics of her own marriage. Munce is a wonderful writer, and she tells a story that isn't stock. It was an unbelievably fresh narrative, and I particularly enjoyed its geography. The end was powerful, and though it made me cry, it didn't leave me sad. Significantly, I would recommend this book to someone who didn't read poetry at all, and I think they would come away a little swayed by the form.

Lazy Sundays

The laziest long weekend on record, and Stu and I were quite lucky because people fed us throughout most of it, so there was no wasting away. Friday, Curtis bought us dinner at Vivoli; Saturday BBQ at Curtis’, though we did make the salads; we went to Jennie and Deep’s Sunday night for a splendid dinner, except that I had a glass of wine and all hell broke loose. Otherwise, we reclined around the house disparaging the rain, and we visited the Italian Festival on College Street and went to Chinatown to buy a tea strainer so we could drink the tea this brilliant someone brought us back from India.

There were also baking disasters. We baked a peach pie for dinner on Sunday and it turned out excellently actually. I might just stick with pies, because my cake baking is really crap. I baked a chocolate cake yesterday for Curtis’s half-birthday (as you do), and I guess recipes are written for a reason, because if you ignore them your cake comes to resemble a bog, and must be cut into squares and the uncooked bits thrown away, and heaped onto a plate like the brownies like in my Nigella cookbook, but not quite as sexually. I persevered though. Several times throughout the process, Stuart came in and advised me to toss the lot into the bin but I kept on, I iced the bog, and though a bit unsightly, the cake squares were good and Curtis’s half-birthday was a success.

And after a lazy weekend, we kicked into high gear, and plenty of things are now doing. We weeded the garden last night, me in me wellies, and though I think we lack the ability to ever grow anything in the garden, pulling the weeds was sort of fun. I started knitting a scarf this weekend too, to get back in the habit before I start my big winter project. And Stu and I got a lot of work done on our latest Pickle Me This Press publication, the book of poetry I Wish My Enemies Were Russians. Which will be available to you in just a week or two!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Remember September

And so September, happy new year. A time for reflection of course, to remember those who enjoy doubting others' impossible plans, and then to laugh at their lack of imagination, because we're okay here, after a long time in limbo. The last year has proven that two people can live on nearly nothing, that there is a light at the end of the immigration tunnel (as long as one is patient), and that things do work out somehow, as long as it is happiness you're aiming for. Which leads me back a few Septembers further, because it was four years ago this week that I ran away to England to seek my fortune (ie sanity). The most impossible plan of all, because I'd just endured a bit of a trauma, was completely depressed/deranged, I had no job prospects, nowhere to live and very little money. For three months I inhabited a gungy sx-infested backpackers hostel in the East Midlands, ran out of money and lived off Tesco value tuna, got into the data entry industry, and it sounds horribly sordid, but it was thrilling, and even more thrilling, I built a life there. It was in December of that year that I moved out of the hostel into a two-up-two-down terrace with a good friend, got promoted to a job that, I believe, is the foundation of any talent I possess as a writer, and then best of all, I met a wonderful British boy who saved my life, and who I married. I realize how incredibly lucky I have always been, but not all of this is luck. I will always love best the bits of life I made myself, on the backs of impossible plans.

~How could one stumble dully through its streets, or waste time sitting in a heap, staring at the wall? When there it lay, its old intensity restored, shining with invitation, all its shabby grime lost in perspective, imperceptible from this dizzy height, its connections clear, its pathways revealed. The city, the Kingdom. The aerial view~ Margaret Drabble, The Middle Ground

I am lucky that when bad things happen, I forget them after. I was reading journals recently that make that altogether evident, and I wondered exactly who had ever penned them? I get nostalgic, you know. I miss England often, as much as Stuart does. In order to supplant my homesickness, I've become obsessed with the blog transatlanticism, by a wonderful writer who also ran away to change her life and proved that it works, it really does. If all plans were possible, we'd stop ever being pleased.

I love India Knight. On what novels can teach us. Oooh! Controversy in Punctuation Land. The CanLit Atlas reviewed. On recurring characters. Must highlight a NYTimes wedding profile which features the line "The survival of the fish was a metaphor for the whole relationship." Please note, said fish is now dead.

I just finished Beyond Black by Hilary Mantel. It was weird but really excellent, and I think I appreciated it a bit more having read Giving Up the Ghost. Now beginningWhen I Was Young and In My Prime, which I bought because it was pretty.

Saturday, September 02, 2006